Welcome to my blog! My name is Christina and I’m a grateful alcoholic in recovery.

First, it is important to mention that I would never shame or criticize anyone for drinking. I have various friend groups, some who drink and some who don’t. The sober journey isn’t for everyone, and that is perfectly ok. The only thing I know for sure, is that sobriety from drugs and alcohol is the only option for me, personally.

I don’t think any child ever thinks, “when I grow up, I want to be an alcoholic!” Yet, for many of us, that becomes our path. Addiction is a family disease. It doesn’t discriminate against age, race or social status.

I strongly believe I was born with the disease of alcoholism. That hole in the pit of your stomach that no matter how hard you try, nothing could ever fill it up. That ache and emptiness so deep in your heart. That constant feeling of loneliness no matter how many people you’re surrounded by. That feeling of not fitting in or ever feeling comfortable in your own skin. That feeling that nothing is ever enough. That feeling that no matter how many people tell you they love you, you’re not capable of loving yourself.

My heavy drinking started after my son was born. I didn’t realize I was struggling with postpartum depression, and I didn’t know how or who to ask for help. I turned to alcohol and completely checked out of my life. I drank to numb all of those feelings I didn’t know how to process or deal with.

By the grace of God and my higher power, I got sober on April 2, 2009.

My faith and my recovery have given me a second chance at life. The universe has worked miracles in my life and the lives of my family. We continue to heal one day at a time. I have learned that recovery isn’t something that you can successfully do on your own. We all need support and a sense of being part of something greater than ourselves.

We don’t ever graduate from being an alcoholic or an addict. We keep an open mind; an open heart and we keep pushing forward. Sometimes walking, sometimes crawling, but, no matter what, we don’t give up on ourselves.

It is my hope that sharing my stories and experiences will bring a sense of peace and belonging to women who can relate to any form of addiction and mental health struggles. Life is complicated. Sometimes beautiful and sometimes beautifully painful. Find your people! Find a girl gang that embraces you and don’t be afraid to be vulnerable. Laugh loudly, don’t ever apologize for crying, dance to your own beat and take up lots of space. Don’t be afraid of being judged. Judgement is for assholes. Stay away from assholes.

Humbly with love and gratitude,

Christina❤️

Xoxo